I feel like I was boring some people with all the Yellowstone photos, so I will only add a few more here. The trip was fun, interesting and definitely worthy of taking the photographs. The down side, to be honest though is we were there maybe a day or two too long. Maybe because there are very few roads in and around the park and with the two lanes, you pretty much see the same each day. I still highly recommend you visit though and definitely try NOT to go during the summer/peak tourist times. If you can get away any other time, do so.
What I did also like about this trip though was the time Michael and I had together. Not all of it rosy and perfect, remember I said we had the ‘fiasco’ with the water (which made Michael a bit cranky and me feeling like I wanted to run away – lol), but what I did enjoy was seeing Yellowstone through his eyes and how thrilled he was in showing me all the places HE had also already photographed. We even had some fun playing Yahtzee (thankfully I bought the travel version), we actually did get in ONE 8 mile hike (found some elk bones AND bear tracks), we got to snuggle and share our photos… even cook!
Here are a few more photos – I even got photobombed by this big black bird (seriously) he moved himself IN my view. LOL
AND I got a chance to actually read some books. I was surprised to have taken the Susan Branch – Martha’s Vineyard Isle of Dreams (which is actually #2 of a trilogy of her life stories). I have been a fan of hers; MANY years ago when I was living up here in the Seattle area, when my kids were young. I found one of her wonderful cookbooks at one of the many craft shows I had gone to back then and collected a few. To read this book (Isle of Dreams) was actually much more interesting than I had imagined. First off, they are fairly quick reads; I love her watercolor illustrations, which she does in all of her books, but to read about how truly ‘romantic and old-fashioned’ she is/was some how hit a nerve with me. I couldn’t put the book down. I realized it is because I felt like HER. Not only do we share a very close birthday, we both have this romantic ideal about what we wanted from our lives (marriage) and hers didn’t ‘start’ quite like she had hoped (either). But, she actually has success with her books/watercolors (not me). I think my nerve is because I’m still struggling with trying to find my next role. I’m actually REALLY ENJOYING not working right now and being a ‘housewife’ is not such a bad thing! Yes, I know some of you may hate the sound of that, but to be quite honest, I AM rather good at it. I’ve actually been doing this my whole life (so far).
The struggle for me though, is that I (in big bold letters) have always taken care of myself AND been responsible for others (including my ex), so feeling like I’m not financially participating is daunting. I’m fortunate to have had my severance and I can still collect some unemployment, but I’m truly happy just doing the things I have been doing – cooking, cleaning, yard work, and maintaining our home. The other night I also found this very funny comedian on Netflix – Ali Wong: Baby Cobra and just about peed my pants when I heard HER say, “I don’t want to work anymore“… she also had a great comment about the feminist issues that even I grew up with… (this is from an interview): Baby Cobra’s funniest moments—and there are many to choose from—find Wong dissecting the glittering allure of domestic life. In the five years she and her husband have been married, she jokes, she’s packed his lunch every day. “I did that so he’d become dependent on me,” she says. “‘Cause he graduated from Harvard Business School, and I don’t want to work anymore.” This is a rather un-feminist position, though probably not an unpopular one, and she expresses it with characteristic bluntness: “I don’t want to lean in, okay? I want to lie down. I want to lie the fuck down. I think feminism is the worst thing that ever happened to women—our job used to be no job. We had it so good!”
Basically, I’ve come to the conclusion that I am also going to still WAIT until the fall to get another job. 1. It actually helps Michael (he won’t have to sign Ethan up for some summer programs), which I realized run mostly from 9:00 to 1:00 and then you have to figure something else out for the kids. (Man, I guess I forgot about that, but I also worked TWO jobs – evenings & weekends when MY kids were that young). Maybe I can get Ethan OUTSIDE for some fun too – need to get ME a new bike… 2. Most companies also won’t be hosting many events during the summer (everyone takes vacations). 3. I can also do temp assignments if I need/want for the time being as well – which is better than trying to take ANY job.
Oh, I also realized that besides the NOT WANTING TO WORK thing, I need to still work on my menopausal maniac moments. HA HA I don’t like doing drugs, so working on more holistic ways (lots more reading too). I do miss my friends though, but they have busy lives of their own and I don’t want to bore them. Thank you (my few readers) that read these silly posts!