(Quick follow up – Michael and I talked about the Step Momster ‘issue’ but we will see how that plays out – AGAIN!) lol
I’m turning 52 (on Wednesday – 13th) AND I’m still trying to SORT THROUGH this next chapter. After 4 years with my company (which is a long time for me), I am still trying to see what I want to DO next! If you follow ‘some of my antics here’ you know that I’ve been being Mini Martha (to some extent) – cooking more, cleaning (always), yard work (lots), detailing cars (ha ha) and just trying to find ME again…
I ‘stupidly’ get too involved in others (dramas/issues) and forget to just get back to me. Also it made me see that my former work life really was ‘coming to an end’ (you lose contact with those people) and you also get a chance to look back (so to speak) at what all happened. I liked being there, feeling like a sense of belonging, but there were the times when I also felt like I didn’t belong (toward the end). Work is NOT your life and although ageism is something most try to deny, the reality is that it IS still a big issue. I liked most of my colleagues, and I most certainly learned from some (not all good, but certainly good insight) into more work dynamics and mental games (bullying is also a work issue, as it is a school/child issue) and HR is not what it used to be. You really do have to look out for YOURSELF and be mindful of your instincts, intuitions and be careful of what you say and do. They are ‘watching you’… It makes you who you are (we spend more time at work then we do on personal lives) and I can attest that I am actually happy it is over now. I missed Tom (my colleague who died, sadly during the holidays) and following that, my work-life didn’t feel the same anyways. His friendship and my last event definitely was the end. I enjoyed the time I had there, miss several of them and sincerely wish them ALL the best for their future!
Part of my time ‘off’ has at least allowed me to travel with Michael (to Philippines & Singapore) and I will be taking my mom (beautiful 83 yr. old) and sister, Monette, to visit our brother Jimmy in Texas (during my birthday) but also because it will allow us time to go re-visit Texas. I am definitely planning a road trip to Waco to go see Magnolia Market (HGTV’s Fixer Upper) and also (hopefully) find some other little adventures. Any suggestions? We will be in the Dallas/Fort Worth area…
I hope that I can come back and sort through things a little more clearer before I leap into that next JOB!? One thing I definitely need to work on (with me) is my health/weight. I hate that damn menopause also hasn’t helped – being short & chubby is NOT fun for me. I miss my energy – I can do all those things I mentioned (above) in great bursts, but man, afterwards I’m wiped out.
Also want to look/feel better about myself too. I finally like who I am, or maybe I just learned to ACCEPT who I am (the luxury of getting older). I don’t give a shit anymore about the same thing the Millenials do, they can have it. And I love to still laugh when one of those little idiots makes remarks about OLD PEOPLE! HA HA I NEVER had an issue with old people, I embraced them as a child (their insight and even their frail bodies) and (I even volunteered at the nursing home down the street from our apartments) to writing about them (Grandmother and a history piece on one of Edinburg, Texas’ oldest living native, as children; they used to call her a witch). OLD PEOPLE showed me how to live… how to appreciate life!
(Grandma & Grandpa on the right)
~ Love, Laura